I felt the urge to finally put this into writing. I do not want to but for my peace of mind, I decided to let it out and maybe, just maybe, I'd find its meaning somehow.
I seldom have dreams. But when I do, it's disturbing. They're not about ghosts although, some were monsters and alienlike but most of the time, its about people I cannot recognize or remember. Its more like I am watching a movie and everything is before my eyes. I am completely detached.
Of course, I also have dreams where I am experiencing everything. And mind you, I wish I was just another spectator. Because the last two dreams had such a disturbing effect in me. The first one was on April 12, 2010. It was about me and my dad. I was pregnant but we had to walk a few miles away to reach our destination. Then the setting changed. We were suddenly at a military camp and there were escaped prisoners with us. I saw someone who looked like Mark Anthony Fernandez. Ken and Ninang Binky were there too, along with a little girl I didn't recognize and an infant. And all of us were running away. Others remained in the camp to ensure that we had escaped to safety. I wonder what that meant.
The second dream was last April 26, 2010. I dreamed of holding an M16 rifle and a .45 caliber gun. I was shooting at different targets from a moving elf. We were at the back, hiding and trying to run away undetected. Yet we were unsuccessful. Armed men were chasing us. We had to return fire. Then, the enemy brought someone from our team whom they had captured earlier. We just can't let him die so we gave up fighting. I felt so devastated as I let go of my weapons and let them drop on the floor. Then I woke up.
I wondered again because both dreams involved running away. I don't know what they meant. I am not a fan of action or horror movies. I don't play wargames on the internet. But these dreams...these are just two of the many dreams I had which involved warfare. I can't shake the feeling that somehow, this can be a warning to me.
I seldom have dreams. But when I do, it's disturbing. They're not about ghosts although, some were monsters and alienlike but most of the time, its about people I cannot recognize or remember. Its more like I am watching a movie and everything is before my eyes. I am completely detached.
Of course, I also have dreams where I am experiencing everything. And mind you, I wish I was just another spectator. Because the last two dreams had such a disturbing effect in me. The first one was on April 12, 2010. It was about me and my dad. I was pregnant but we had to walk a few miles away to reach our destination. Then the setting changed. We were suddenly at a military camp and there were escaped prisoners with us. I saw someone who looked like Mark Anthony Fernandez. Ken and Ninang Binky were there too, along with a little girl I didn't recognize and an infant. And all of us were running away. Others remained in the camp to ensure that we had escaped to safety. I wonder what that meant.
The second dream was last April 26, 2010. I dreamed of holding an M16 rifle and a .45 caliber gun. I was shooting at different targets from a moving elf. We were at the back, hiding and trying to run away undetected. Yet we were unsuccessful. Armed men were chasing us. We had to return fire. Then, the enemy brought someone from our team whom they had captured earlier. We just can't let him die so we gave up fighting. I felt so devastated as I let go of my weapons and let them drop on the floor. Then I woke up.
I wondered again because both dreams involved running away. I don't know what they meant. I am not a fan of action or horror movies. I don't play wargames on the internet. But these dreams...these are just two of the many dreams I had which involved warfare. I can't shake the feeling that somehow, this can be a warning to me.
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